I'm usually strong, I can adapt, get through things. But this is the worst I've felt so far. I haven't even started university yet and I want to go home. I feel like I have took my friends and family for granted, i need them more than anything right now - but I am alone. 
All I want to do is sleep all day and not get out of bed, it's such a struggle even going for a cigarette or to the shop, my heart beats too fast and I feel sick all the time. 
All I need is someone to talk to and tell me it'll be ok....